ragnar/athelstan

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Any other man with a new slave might try to break him physically, and Ragnar was certainly capable. He hadn't exactly been gentle with Athelstan so far, but he had not laid a hand on him in anger. In fact, he'd spent more time making sure his slave felt at home with his family, to learn more about him and the lands from which he came. Nothing about Ragnar Lodbrok was unplanned, however. Every move, every word, every gesture was purposeful.

For now, he was simply staring. He'd been staring at Athelstan for nearly an hour now, cross-legged near the hearth. He hadn't spoken a word yet, and his face gave away little, save for the ever present laugh-lines creasing his eyes and the smile that implied he knew something you did not.

He'd developed something of an obsession with this priest, this new and unfamiliar thing that held a wealth of new wisdom, if he could figure out how to unlock it. He had to be inside his mind somehow, and for that, a beating into submission would not do. No, this took a more precise approach, and that required observation. He would take everything that he could of this man, and why not? The gods had brought this opportunity to him for a reason.

He shifted suddenly, stretching and then settling to lay on his side, head propped up on his knuckles. His eyes, however, had not moved.

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"God knows Everything," Athelstan draws back, and he genuinely is insulted. He can't help the knee jerk reaction, and is alarmed that it isn't the fact that the other is touching his hair, nor the face that his index finger had rubbed along his chin in a strangely comforting fashion.

"He doesn't make us, we choose to--I chose to live my life making His books and chanting His name. Odin doesn't make you explore uncharted territory, does he? But you did, nonetheless."

His voice is surprisingly patient, surprisingly soft, looking straight at the other. Pale hands hold onto his cup a little tighter, and he lifts it to his lips.

"And you found my people and my abbey."

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"Yes, I did." He repeated, persistent in pushing at the priest, wanting to see some sort of spark in him, whether it was conviction or doubt.

"Your god was watching, then? He was there as we killed your brothers and took his treasure? Burned his holy place? He knows everything and did nothing. Here I am, home with my family and the favor of my gods. And you. He let me have you." His voice was never accusatory, never aggressive, simply bearing the easy confidence that embodied every part of Ragnar's being. His posture stayed relaxed, his eyes clear and alert despite his being in his cups for most of the evening.

"Maybe he looks away, sometimes."

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He doesn't mean to sound angry--he doesn't. But Ragnar's words have been toying with him since he was on that boat here. They've kept him up with visions and dreams and left nagging feelings driven into his skull. Guilt. The words come tumbling out, quick, before he can do anything.

"This is a test. To show how strong I am, in faith--in His faith. It has to be." He busies his fingers with the book again, absently realizing they're shaking somewhat. Why, he's not sure, so he clenches his fist and stares at it, willing it to stop.

"If I do not have Him, I have no one."

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"If you say so."

He couldn't help but grin like a child with a sweet, the laugh lines around his eyes crinkling as he laid back on the rushes that covered the earthen floor, his hands behind his head. He'd gotten the insight he'd wanted into Athelstan's mind, and yet there was so much more to do.

"Drink, priest. We will talk of gods again, but I have had enough of them tonight."

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His smile warms at that, just a touch, and he seems to actually relax--he leans back, too, following Ragnar's lead so he's next to the other. He thinks nothing of it now, which he considers a strange thing. Laying on the floor like this, drinking ale--it would be ridiculous to him before he met the other.

"Can I ask you something?" He asks, blue eyes fixed to the thatching on the roof, fingers curling over the horn. Ragnar, personable, knows when not to press things, it seems. He waits a few moments before speaking anyway, regardless of the outcome, and glances over to the other while he does so.

"Why do you call me priest all the time? You know my name."

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"You answer to it." He replied with a laugh.

Ragnar turned on his side once Athelstan laid down next to him, silently watching him for a moment before he considered the question again. It was true, his family and friends called him much the same, but he supposed there was no reason to deny the man ever hearing another voice speak his name. He did not believe in the idea of mistreating a slave, or really even having one in the first place. Better a man with a foreign god be his slave and under his protection than a free man among his people, though.

"Would it make you happier if I didn't?" He asked, that knowing smirk quirking up the corner of his lips as his voice dropped barely above a whisper.

"Athelstan."

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All Ragnar has to do is half-whisper his name and something strange stirs within Athelstan. He shifts, suddenly uncomfortable, but not because of the name or the conversation.

He's heard them. Both in their furs, making love. He's heard Lagertha's moans and Ragnar's grunts and pants as the bed moves, and he is left only with his thoughts. Ragnar's voice is close to that tone, he thinks, and that's why it's making him feel odd. The red sweeps his cheeks but he only chalks this up to it being suddenly warm, and not with anything of the other sort.

He buries himself in the ale momentarily, mostly to buy himself some time.

"It doesn't bother me either way," he says after a moment, and he's moving to drink once more. "I'm surprised you can pronounce it, Ragnar, with your tongue."

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Ragnar was many things. He was a warrior, a farmer, adventurer, dreamer, a husband, father, brother. Above all things, he was simply a man. He was a man without fear or shame and a lust for all things in life.

He knew what the look in the priest's eyes, what the color in his cheeks, the shift in his body language meant. It meant that Ragnar had set the hook, and all he really had to do was pull.

"I couldn't, not at first. I think it is partially why you are 'priest'." He admitted casually, examining the back of his hand before flicking his gaze back up at the other man.

"I said it again and again to myself until it felt right on my tongue, though." He tilted his head slightly as he asked, "Does it sound good to you?"

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There's something strange in that wording--a hiccup of language, he thinks. It has to be, because Athelstan is thinking things he shouldn't based on those words alone.

He sits up. He's not sure why it feels better, why it'll feel cooler, but it does and he's temporarily pleased with himself, taking a large drink from the cup and refusing to meet the other's gaze. He still has to answer respectably. Courteously. He chooses his next words very, very carefully.

"I'm not sure if matters much what I think," He says softly. "I think you're the type to do what you wish."

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"It matters because I asked you." Ragnar persisted, his piercing gaze almost predatory in nature as he looked up at Athelstan. He was determined, eventually, for this priest's dedication to falter, if only to observe what would happen. His motivations weren't entirely for wisdom, however, and the concept of Catholic guilt was lost on him. Ragnar was as free as he pleased with his sexuality, and it was not by accident that the priest had heard him take his wife.

"If I did everything I wished, Athelstan, your vows would have been broken right there in your holy place."

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"What do you mean by that?" He asks, and there's no edginess to his voice, no panic--it's replaced with genuine curiosity, turning his head to face the other. Blue eyes stare into the same colour, mirrored, and his smile doesn't say he's happy, but confused.

"You would make me kill or lie?"

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Ragnar laughed, shaking his head.

"Try again." He teased, raising a fingertip to press to Athelstan's forehead. "Think."

He wanted to see the realization on the priest's face, wanted him to come to the idea on his own. He wanted to see if it would make him blush, or if the idea of sacrilege would just horrify him. It was certainly slightly arousing to Ragnar, but that could happen anytime the wind picked up.

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He instinctively leans back, frowning, but it doesn't get much further than that and the furrowing of his eyebrows. He's marginally used to the viking poking and prodding him, and at the very least doesn't scamper away anymore.

...When had he started comparing himself to a frightened rabbit?

That's the thought that sticks with him, and his tongue darts out to lick at his dry lips, still holding the book, and looking down at it, briefly, before looking back over at Ragnar.

"I would much rather not," he says politely. Bold words, but he does what Ragnar tells him to. He thinks. There's a lot of things that Ragnar does that is sinful--worship another God comes to mind, but the actual realization of what he means builds up, slowly, until his face shows it all at once.

Maybe he's overreacting. Surely, he's overreacting? Ragnar isn't just thinking about sexual acts. Not with him. When he had offered, it was for his wife. That's what he tells himself every time he hears the two as he prays loudly and quickly to his God. He chances a look up, chances a glance at Ragnar's eyes, and immediately drops his gaze.

"....You mean my vow of chastity." It's a question, yes, but also a satement. His heart is hammering in his chest.

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"I do." He replied casually, and then made a thoughtful hum before he continued. "You told us you cannot touch a woman, that you never have. What about a man? Is that a sin, too?"

Ragnar was open-minded, as was perfectly obvious when it came to Athelstan. He'd grown more curious with every day that passed, and it was plain to see that the monk was attractive, especially as his hair was growing out and his body became more tan and toned with the manual labor necessary to run a farm. He'd seen the way his wife and other women looked at him, and it just made Ragnar want him more. He loved a challenge, whether in navigating to the unknown West or bedding a man with such conviction to his God.

"Wouldn't you like to?" He echoed in that same playful tone that he'd asked when inviting Athelstan to his bed for the first time.

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"Seed spilled for something other than procreation is a sin, not being with a man or woman," Athelstan says softly, suddenly aware of how close Ragnar is. How the other seems to brush his shoulder unintentionally, and those startling, crisp blue eyes raking over him, constantly making decision after decision about things Athelstan has no control over.

"It's not a matter of what I like," He tries to explain, and he's shifting so he can better face the other. He's trying his best to ignore the other's tone. "I've taken vows to further my relationship with God. We all have, and your... There's a lot of us you captured that have had that violated."

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Ragnar gave a playful roll of his eyes. He'd heard this one before. He would have Athelstan one day, but it was looking less and less like tonight. There was still the matter of tormenting him, anyway, and that was much easier.

"Have it your way then, priest. I will not violate your vows. Go back to your book, I have a need." He stood, abruptly but still with the grace of a cat, striding towards his sleeping quarters. His bed and furs were only a few feet away, but that would service his purpose quite well tonight.

He undressed slowly, his skin tanned from the summer raids, silvery scars from battles past occasionally catching the firelight. His mentioned 'need' was more than a little apparent, though he did make a concession to Athelstan's modesty by slowly pulling his furs up to his hips where he laid.

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Athelstan drinks it in, like too full a cup of wine after their meals, and is unable to quite tear his gaze away from him. Ragnar moves like an animal, perhaps a wolf, but with all the wit of a raven watching everything carefully.

The way he says priest, sharp and hissing, it gives Athelstan goosebumps and raises the hair on his neck, but not in a frightened away. He swallows, hard, and exhales. Somehow, he cannot bring himself to look away. Not with the rugged viking in the firelight, pulling on the furs.

He should. He should look away or excuse himself and pray, but he can't. He can only stare, half in wonder and half in curiousity. His cheeks are red, right up to the tip of his ears, and he's sure with his pale complexion it's visible in the dim lighting of the house.

"What are you doing?"

He knows the answer to that, too, but he asks anyway.

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Ragnar laid back, looking at the ceiling for a moment as his fingertips trailed down over his chest, flattening down to drag his entire hand down below his navel to disappear beneath his fur blanket.

When he touched the base of his cock, he put his other arm behind his head, propping himself up so he could meet Athelstan's stare, the reddening of his skin creeping up from his chest to his neck with his arousal.

"Sinning." He answered with a grin that was absolutely wolfish in nature, though his breath hitched as he teased his erection with his fingertips. "Will you whisper to your god of it? Will you ask him to forgive me?"

The thought of it just seemed to entice him even more, the delicate veins of his arms and neck pressing against the skin as his heart beat more quickly. Still, he kept the blanket just high enough to keep him modest, even as his hand wrapped around his cock and stroked with more purpose.

"I think I would like to hear you pray for me."

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"Ragnar--" He stops himself short, licking his lips and looking pointedly away. He needs to avoid temptation. He needs to walk not the way of Satan, but the way of the Lord.

He's not sure what to think now, though. Athelstan feels his ears redden, especially at the other's words. It's perverse, and there's no doubt in his mind that Ragnar would get a perverse kick from it. He could refuse, ultimately, but that would be decidedly un-Christian.

"I would--I would rather not, if it's all the same to you." It's one very last feeble attempt before he, eventually, gives in.